Saturday, 27 December 2008

• I should probably figure out how I feel about him coming here

  I'm hiring him as a farm hand and giving him a place to stay until he can get a place of his own. He'll probably be spending a couple years with me.
   My ex. After everything.
  Lets rule out what I'm not: I'm not upset. I'm not angry or bitter.
  Here's what I am, and I'll try to be honest: I am a little apprehensive and I will be a bit tense, but strangely...the idea of being able to finally give him some stability...to get him away from those people who've surrounded him for most of his life, makes me happy.
  ...having reliable help with my endeavors next year's a big plus too.
  
  Mom loves gardening, but she'll stop helping with certain things if she gets upset...and she gets upset so easily.
  
  "Strays" she said, heh. I don't know, I think that's a cute way to put it.
  
  I guess, to tell you the truth, all I've ever wanted to do for that boy is to help him find a way to be happy for always.
  
  I can't not be a little tickled that I might get the opportunity.
  
  And maybe that's the best way to kick off this whole scheme of mine: by helping someone and having that person help me. The entire idea is to inspire others, leading by example.
   If all this won't be inspirational -- especially for me -- then I'm not sure what will.
  
  And we'll just have to see how 2009 goes. The world's gone mad and continues to go down an unpredictable path. I think I've chosen the best possible choice for my life given this aspect, and like I've said, I'll be damned if I let him get stuck in Michigan...because it seems to have a dead economy and will probably sometime start decaying.
  
  Surely, with help, I can do this thing. I can start a micro-farm and be successful at it -- especially considering that food is recession-proof, Great Depression 2-proof, and catastrophe-proof.
  
  I imagine all this stuff all at once will be slightly overwhelming, but the more I think about it...the more I think it's probably the best thing that could happen. Maybe not just for me, either. Hopefully not just for me.
  
  Mom's warm about the idea, so that's a good sign. I wasn't sure how she'd take it when I asked her.
  
  I got sheers, scissors, and more freezer bags last weekend, so I'm almost set on business supplies.
   Now I just gotta get a few more plants and save up a little money and I'll be ready.
  
  
  

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